I wrote this lyric after an amazing time of worship. I had just read Psalm 17:8 where David says, “Keep me as the apple of your eye…” It’s an incredible thing to know that, no matter what, God loves us beyond anything we have ever known. As it declares in Ephesians, “…to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ.”
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You Love Me
I’m the apple of Your eye
You love me
I’m the object of Your desire
So when I feel ashamed
Full of doubt and blame
I’ll remember You don’t change
You love me
I tend to feel unwanted
I tend to hurt sometimes
Overwhelmed by darkened clouds
With tarnish on the silver lining
I like to play the victim
Hide behind the pain
Smiling on my face
Or frozen, unbending
You look beyond my tantrums
Meet my questions
With one answer
This week, I’ve got a wonderful worship song that I hope you’ll enjoy. I love doing it in this slow, contemplative way. I could sing it for hours! (thanks Harold Greene). It was written by Kathryn Scott from the Vineyard in Ireland (we’re getting intenational here).
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New song this week written with one of my favorite people in the world, Anje Dowler, and Katie Dean. It’s got a “James Taylor Moment” in the middle where the key goes up and I have to move the capo in a split second. Watch for it :).
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Fight In Me
Ben Ward, Anje Dowler, Katie Dean
You’re the cigarette I’m not smoking
You’re the whiskey I’m not pouring
Anymore….Why can’t I close the door
You’re the hit I’m not taking
You’re the judgment I’m not making
It’s not over yet…Too hard to forget
I’ve got more needs
Than the comfort you bring
You hold my hand
But you’re not holding on to me
I’ve got some doubts
But I’m feeling my way out
In the end I believe
There’s still a fight in me
Maybe I fall too quickly
Maybe I’m my own worst enemy
It’s so easy…You never leave me
I’ll overcome where I’ve come from
Undo the damage I’ve done
Wednesday was not a great day. Nothing bad happened. It just wasn’t good. Have you ever had one of those days?
I stayed home from work to wait on the exterminator (another long story…) who never came. I tried to record a new song for the YouTube Sessions on keyboard and I just couldn’t get a good take. At about ten o’clock I decided to pack the recording stuff up (it’s New York – there no room for a dedicated studio) and try again another day. I must’ve spent five hours or so working on that song. Nothing to show for it. I wanted to write a blog – no dice. I even wanted to go for a run…didn’t happen.
It’s been a long time since I tried so many different things and nothing worked out. But I guess it’s just one of those days.
One of thosedays
One of those days
One of those days
No matter how you say it (write it…whatever!) it just doesn’t give you any more satisfaction.
But just before midnight as I was packing up the gear to shove into my closet I stumbled onto something. I put a vinyl copy of James Taylor’s Sweet Baby James on the turntable and I just enjoyed it.
Didn’t sing along. Didn’t play along. Just enjoyed.
So I did accomplish something after all on one of those days. Something I could have done all day long: Listen to the sounds of some really great songs.