So one night I got into this rabbit hole on YouTube (don’t you love them??) watching old James Taylor shows. I SO wanted to write some great songs like that (and still do!). So I just started…I was also in that crazy sleepy place where you’re a little freer and I just let the song become what it wanted. I really like how it turned out. Don’t know if it’s JT quality, but I keep working!
So excited to have Stephanie White and Jessica Logan singing harmonies. We’ve got a cool cover coming up you won’t want to miss!
I’ve spent most of my life running from this place
I’ve spent most of my time trying to put on a happy face
I can’t ever figure out just where to begin
When I finally do I don’t know where to end
That’s when you walk in
Pretty as can be
Make me stop my doubting
Convince me to believe (that)
The sky won’t fall if it’s a little gray
And we won’t lose it all if we’re a little late
And everybody’s known to get the blues
But I got you and you got me
And that’s everything we’ll ever need
Guy on the TV screen’s got the latest thing
What he’s selling me’s not what I need
I don’t live my life on bread alone
‘Cause in the blink of an eye it’s almost gone
That’s when you walk in
Pretty as can be
Make me stop daydreaming
And see what’s right in front of me
We think we’ve have to have so much
But I could live for years on your sweet love
It’s always enough
Time for a new song! This one I wrote with my dear friend Anje Dowler…bunch of new ones coming up here and on the YouTube channel!
Finally Free Anje Dowler/Ben Ward
It seemed so permanent
Felt like forever
They all said “learn from it”
It’ll get better
But walking around in chains ain’t good enough you see
So I cut those ties, the one’s that bind
And it almost killed me
But I’m still standing
All my reasoning
Seemed so perfect
Far from working
With no one else to blame walking right into that place
Just let it go, nothing left to know
No more excusing
Done with waiting
Today the subway was packed with people. That’s not unusual in the mornings, but today was extra tight. I noticed a woman standing next to me reading the Bible and it got me thinking about how many people I see reading Scripture on the train. Of course, everyone’s usually doing something – reading, writing, listening to music – but there’s often someone reading the Bible.
So often we hear about how the Church is compacting and leaders ask the question, “Where are all the believers?” While this is not necessarily a bad question to ask, God’s been showing me that He has believers everywhere. Even in the darkest places His people are there. They are praying. They are seeking Him. They are the ones bringing the favor of God upon those places. They are leading people out of the darkness.
What I’ve started doing when I see these people on the train is just praying for them. Praying that God would show them something so incredible, so wonderful in that moment. It’s the only place to start for my new brother or sister I didn’t know existed just minutes before.
Jesus is building His Church in the Earth. Let’s look for each other. Let’s encourage each other — even if we don’t always agree. He’s worthy of that and so much more.
May we be His Body:
And God placed all things under his (Christ’s) feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way. – Ephesians 1:22-23
This will be a light week on the blog as I’m preparing to lead worship at Shelter Rock Church this weekend and Olivia and I are answering the question, “To move or not to move…”
I hope everybody’s ready for a great weekend…I am! This has been a long week…
Just wanted to update everybody on what’s going on these days and ask you for your prayers.
If you follow our journey, you know that I have been seeking a new position as a worship leader at a church. While I’ve been waiting on the Lord, I’ve had a temp job at the NFL. It’s been such a blessing and a lot of fun, but it’s coming to an end sometime in November, so I’ve been asking the Lord what’s next.
I’ve interviewed with a church in Long Island and am going to lead worship at one of their campuses this Sunday. In addition to the possibility of the position, I’m also just excited about leading worship in a corporate setting…it’s been awhile.
There are a couple of other possibilities if it’s not the right place, but I would appreciate your prayers!
Olivia and I are also trying to decide whether to move closer to Midtown. It’s a long commute to her current job (in which she was just promoted!!) and, if I get the LI position, I would need to be closer to Penn Station for the train.
This obviously involves moving (which is always a big deal) and paying more in rent. So we’re just laying it all before the Lord.
Happy Autumn!! It’s my favorite season of the year and it’s in full swing in New York City. I’ve got a new song for you this week. I’m always amazed at myself how I wonder if God will come through for me. He has never let me down. Ever. Be it finances, where to live, how to get there, what to do, how to do it, who to be with, how to meet them, it has made no difference! He has always met every need in a way that I couldn’t have imagined before.
But still, I come across a situation from time to time and my flesh says, “No way this is happening.” That’s such a lie. Lord, help me to trust You…to just believe — all that You require.
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Hard to Believe
Why don’t I believe You
Why, You never fail
You always answer
So many stories I could tell
But the train runs Your schedule
Keeping perfect time
That’s what always kills me
I get restless, flying blind
And the fear inside me dies
And lives intersect
You’re everything I need
So why, every once-in-a-while
Is it so hard to believe?
You tell me, “Keep on asking”
Ask, seek, knock
I know You want to bless me
But my heart is solid rock
Could You plan some excavating
Digging out my doubt
Replacing it with faith
So I can trust my way out
Instead of trusting I keep trying
Run in place, forget the timing
Circumstance and speculation
Keep me in the dark
But Your lamp keeps shining
Illuminating shadows in my heart